it's 12:09 pm, on February 16, 2009 - flesh wound.

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something I've been doing in the last week is skimming and/or reading, slowly, all the entries in this journal. I'm going backwards, slowly feeling myself get younger and younger and younger. go from B to M to D to A to R and farther. letters out of sequence. people shifted out of time.

I'm still in 2003, that most horrible of summers. slowly tracing backwards the rate of decay for my sanity. the reason I'm doing it is to try and cull things for my project. the reason I'm doing it is to try and reorient myself before I start my project.

sometimes I think the real reason I'm doing it is to remind myself I used to have a Patrick - many patricks - and I lost each one.

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whine - March 17, 2009
history repeating? - March 12, 2009
permanent - March 08, 2009
bruise - March 04, 2009
- - February 21, 2009