it's 11:33 pm, on October 27, 2010 - -.

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in new secret countries, I discuss fully how true this is, but--

a long time ago someone told me that i was incapable of caring for people, or loving anyone; rather, what i loved was the feelings people engendered within me. I had no ability to *feel* for anything beyond my own capacity for appreciation.

now, that email's long gone, friends and frienemies, but let me tell you, the sentiment holds true nearly ten years later-- because the person i empathize most with these days? sociopath Sherlock from the bbc. i told someone today that i wished i was smart enough to pull off being that rude to people, because the necessity of needing to manipulate people into *liking* me turns my stomach and wearies my heart.

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