it's 11:08 pm, on October 16, 2006 - wavering.

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though I try not to, am continually thinking all the time; about Bryant, about the reasons for not staying, about the reasons for disappearing, about the craving to get away. cannot make anything permanent; once a decision is made, especially about something like this, almost immediately it's reversed.

don't know how to make anything stick. I want to see him, I want to never see him. I want to try and make amends, I want to never make amends. I have affection; I have hatred. one moment there is a simple, obvious, unwavering solution in front of me, and the next moment there is also an obvious, unwavering solution, only it's the opposite.

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