it's 1:50 a.m., on 2001-07-23 - computer woes ahoy.
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* Lise- chuckles. It had to do with a bunch of rebels like from stargate... a truck stop that us dex-conners wanted to take over for them.
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I have decided that anything that looks as good as a pink grapefruit isn't supposed to taste as bad as a pink grapefruit.
I mean, somewhere along the way, someone's wires got crossed and all of a sudden, this juicy, lucious, pink citrus fruit got a taste associated with, I dunno. Camels or something. Something that smells really bad and bitter.
Grapefruit is the perfect diet food -- yeah, and I know why. Once you eat some of it, you're loathe to put anything else in your mouth because it tasted so bad.
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News on the hard drive front: it's getting better. I think. Formatting now. Cross your fingers for me, y'all. I think I'm getting there. Slowly. On a boat to china.
Boats to china would be dull and make me sea sick.
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I want to tell you guys a great big whopping non-secret.
I feel very young.
Well, okay, so it's because I *am* young. I'm only barely legal age; I'm getting over the fact that I can take the car out, nevermind drink legally. I'm a kid, really. I get away with being twelve at movie theaters. I act like my fourteen year old sister, without all the make-up and interest in boys.
I barely fucking realize that I'm not in elementary school -- that yes, university and I *are* on a first name basis. That yes, I actually have a chance to pick a major for my first degree in a little while.
In maybe three years -- sooner?! -- I could be applying to gradschool and going to write, like, master's papers and have to be a real scholar and *know* things. I'm not going to ever get to live in my car; I'm playing in the sandbox now, alternating with working on being twenty three and schooling myself into oblivion.
What the fuck am I *doing*, man?
I feel very young. I feel like I shouldn't be *doing* this to myself; and I feel like sooner or later (sooner, rather than later) all these people who really *DO* know things are going to find out that I'm just a nerd who writes medium quality, relatively speaking, writing and who drives a truck. Who has no concept of saving money. Who, who. Who doesn't even know what to say to someone who is hurting.
I am the little tin soldier. I'm lined up all in a row. I'm buried in the sand.
Fuck, I've never had a real job in my whole life. I'm nineteen, I'm in third year university, and I've never had to work. I've never been what I want to; I don't know what I want to. I am young.
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More news on the computer-- is now formatted and ready for an OS.
Problem is. I have no CD-Rom drivers. I must make CD driver boot disk. I *hate* doing this. I *always* do this, every time I reformat a fucking computer.
Yes. It goes slow. ;)
--another update: ten oh four pm. Installing Windows 95. We Are Happy about this. Very. Next comes up-grading to 98, and then finally, downloading those programs which I so desperately crave (ie: notetab, dreamweaver, winamp, photoshop 5.5 -- though I might take that off my uncle -- mirc 5.4 32 bit, and AIM. And the ftp program I have been using. And then audiogalaxy. And then probably, uh, windows media player upgrade. Or something.)
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One forty-seven in the morning... everything's fixed and done. I haven't cracked Dreamweaver 4 yet; I haven't installed Adobe. Haven't tested the burner or the scanner -- am afraid to without more information, and some software. I still don't have Word. Other than that, I'm set, I'm done. I'm good to go.
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