it's 6:24 pm, on March 07, 2008 - growing older is learning the relative importance and unimportance of things?.

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no. 1: note to self: STOP READING LJS THAT MAKE YOU WANT TO DIE.

somehow I must be able to turn the 'parent-filter' on for my firefox and forcefully filter people out of my life.

no. 2: note to self: STOP MISSING PEOPLE ALOT THAT YOU DON'T REALLY EVEN LIKE ANYMORE.

so things continue. I am now twenty-six, which hopefully will be better than the ridiculous car crash of twenty five. I wanted to post the other day about finally understanding the definition of "jerking around" - maybe I already did. whatever. jerking around: to be jerked, to be kept on the hook, to have taken the bait and on the line without ever being reeled in.

resolution for 2009: london, england. say goodbye to this provincial - in the unsophisticated meaning - city and hello to the continental life.

oh, and I remember what else I wanted to say: I don't even think about Mel at all anymore. statement made purely to save for posterity, in order to categorize life changes and the process by which things crumble down.

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much later: while walking home through the blowing snow and blizzard, I had the perfect line to post on its own to sum up how I feel. of course, having reached my destination, I can't remember what it is. suffice it to say the gist was: "yes, now I am really alone", or some other pathetic sentiment. you're all probably lucky I forgot it.

--oh, but I remember something I did want to say: Lowest of the Low is playing tomorrow at the canadian indie music awards along with the new pornographers. this is just another example of things that I miss about him, that I shouldn't miss as much as this, since many people can fill that gap now for him, and yet.

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