it's 5:06 pm, on November 27, 2017 - decided to break it.

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revisited the quote "i had a patrick, then i lost her", today.

every time i talk to one of those people who used to make me more creative, it feels so weird to know that kind of thing changes.

a large part of this human animal wants to buy a one-way ticket to london and crawl under blackfriars bridge, huddle in cardboard while shaving my head. but blackfriars is full of million-pound flats.

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an entire evening with marianas trench stuck in my head. maybe they aren't as amazing unless you grew up in vancouver; unless you actually found yourself drunk at three am on dunbar; high on ecstasy and lost in the granville skytrain. unless you spent seventeen and eighteen fucking around right there, too. maybe that brand of rich and desperate and just fine only translates when you don't quite live in LA.

it was my best friend who had the drug addiction, he never went to rehab, and I graduated a year earlier than josh ramsey; but maybe it sort of is the same.

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perpetual motion bruise - March 22, 2018
justin and lance, if yr wondering - March 11, 2018
- - December 23, 2017
southwark, london - November 29, 2017

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